Nobody said it was easy

My beloved egg

Thoughts on my seminar painting:


I am sitting in the studio right now and I flipped my paper 90 degrees to the right and saw something completely different from this piece. It gave me a refreshing view of what I was actually dealing with. With my work, there is no plan. I don't know what I am getting myself into when I touch my brush to the paint. It just happens. I'm not editing what comes out. I think and I do. I guess that goes along with my theme I am doing...automatic painting/un-edited subconscious and so forth. But it's more than that. I look at an image I created from nowhere and it makes me think of another image or possibly even a word. When I turned my paper over I immediately saw a battleground. I can't explain how or why it happens. I become obsessed with certain objects or images that I put into the picture and surround myself around it. I took a detail picture of something I did that reminds me of an egg. I have become obsessed with my egg. So much that I almost named my painting after it. When I turned my paper around and saw the battlefield I also started seeing more things....pegasus, landscapes, hot air balloon dropping bombs onto a crowded city. Then I started to feel as if my little city I created was barricading itself from the thing in the sky to protect my egg. Pegasus' egg! Don't ask me what it means. I have no idea. I don't even know why Pegasus came to my head. Maybe deep in my subconscious I am trying to protect something, something as fragile as an egg. Maybe it is beautiful like pegasus and fragile at the same time. Or perhaps I have deep seeded thoughts about the war overseas and all the uproar in Egypt. That has been on my mind lately, so perhaps theres a connection; but I honestly don't know. I just needed to get this out and record it, I felt like it was too important to my discovering of my own artwork not to put it down in history. Even if it makes absolutely no sense at all. There's a little taste of what goes on in my head. 

The city below

Pegasus in the sky??? What the...!

As for other important news:

I am being nominated for the Lindquist Scholarship for Creative and Artistic Endeavors!!

Matt told me yesterday during Painting class and I am so excited. I can't believe that he chose to nominate me!? Nothing cool like this ever happens to me. I will have to apply this month for it and it would be amazing if I won.