Well that's a crap sandwich!

Didn't get the Lindquist Scholarship...that's a terrible disappointment. I really thought I had a chance. What is even worse is that Nicole didn't get it either. I am crossing my figures that we both will get a departmental scholarship. We thought we had it all figured out! GRRR. I am going to make me some macaroni and cheese. That makes everything better...

fighting til' the end.

It's been a couple weeks since I posted last. I went on a cruise March 7th-11th and then Spring Break was the week after, so i didn't get to paint for two weeks almost. I was kind of out of it but then today I started to feel my rhythm again after figure painting. The two above are figure studies I did before the break. I am pretty happy with how they turned out. It always sucks when you run out of time on them though. The one of Matt we only got half an hour I think to paint, and the one of Ariel was an hour and a half, so that one is a little more "done." I like the weight of both of them though.

 These three figures are ones that I have done this week. The top two were done today (Wednesday) and the red background one was done on Monday. I noticed when I was working today, my color palette reminded me a lot of Maria Lassnig's which is funny because I have been looking at her work. Guess looking at art really can and does influence your own. Even Matt mentioned it when he was making his rounds in class. I think my red one turned out the best. There is something about the composition and the structure of the body I think was more successful than the other two. In the top painting I was having some issues getting the legs down just right.

Last but not least, this is my current painting project. We have to paint using a non-visual source. I kind of have gone back and forth with this project and my two week break was in the middle of it so I don't think I have fully investigated the idea of non-visual sources. I chose a couple songs that I like to listen to when I paint by Phantogram and Tegan and Sara, as my source. I was feeling a little frustrated on Monday because I wasn't sure if I should be moving on from the small series of mechanical/organic "littles" or not. Matt told me to basically do what feels right and tune everything else out. I don't think I have pushed it as far as I can so I will keep going with it. I like the smaller intimate paintings right now.


I still have not heard back about either of the scholarships I applied for. Hopefully I will hear something next week :/

It's Been Awhile

Oh man it's been a couple weeks since I have updated my blog. A lot has happened I guess. I turned in work for the Lindquist Scholarship two weeks ago, I think. Today, I put my portfolio up for the Art Major Departmental scholarship. I think I have a pretty good shot at winning some kind of scholarship. Hopefully I will anyway. That would be sweet if Nicole and I both won one or the other :)

I have been working more on my little masonite paintings. I don't know what to call them, and earlier I referred to them as my "littles," so maybe that is what I will title them. They are partially organic and partially mechanical. I showed my first four during BFA crit last Thursday, and everyone seemed to like them okay but I think everyone could see that they were pretty early in their development. Angelika really wants me to break out of the square and to shape the paper that I am actually working on. There was a consensus that paper was favored over masonite...but I like the way the masonite feels also. Maybe it doesn't read to everyone one the way I perceive it, but I like it. I made three more "littles" yesterday (Tuesday), and hopefully will get some more done before the week is out. I like where my work is going, I just need to keep pushing. These smaller, more intimate paintings have given me the chance to reflect on myself. This is the first body of work in awhile that I have actually thought that it applied to my relationships and personal life. Of course, it all applies to me because it's MINE, but you know what I mean. I think I am embracing the void of a white and empty background, kind of like I am struggling to embrace the emptiness I sometimes feel in myself. I like to control situations that are out of my power sometimes and I try to create organization out of chaos. I may be over-analyzing my work, but I really think this is why I am doing what I'm doing. I'm seeing connections to myself and it's not just random forms that come out of my head. It's something more. I just have to keep digging.


Here are some pictures of my "littles" and of "Pegasus' battle of the egg," or whatever I'm calling it (abandoned/completed). Bad photos, but here ya go.

Going to MEXICO next week! Hopefully I don't get too out of it while I'm gone...